Thursday, March 14, 2013

Thoughts from a Worrier

I am a worrier. I don't like to admit that, but I am. I worry about alot of things (too many to list), but If I really slow down and reflect on why I worry, it boils down to a lack of trust in God. There, I said it. I don't always trust that God has my best interest at heart, or that God will come through for me, therefore I end up trying to solve or reslove something in my own power, my own strength, my own timing. 

It's interesting that two of our top 12 Scriptures at Bellwood address this very issue: 

Philippians 4:6-8 Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, beloved, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.


Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;  in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Here's what it boils down to: When I trust in myself (my fallen, broken, sinful self), I am going to worry because I am not the one who is really in control nor even capable of being. But when I surrender to God (trust that He does have my best interest at heart) then I learn patience and humility - and again realize that I am not God.

Why is this so hard to remember?